A bit of an emotional day...

I guess before I get into today's emotional day, I will comment on yesterday's kick ass workout. When I say kick ass, I don't mean it was awesome, I mean it kicked my ass! I actually found it to be a bit more "fun," if you can really call it that, than our first class. Luckily for me, Ben has already blogged about it so I will let you read it directly from his blog. There is even a little video snippet there for your viewing pleasure! Oh the joy! Let me tell you, I was in some serious pain last night. I wasn't quite sure if I would be able to get comfortable enough to go to sleep. But I was, and I slept like a baby. You know, the good kind of baby! I managed to make it through the entire hour without running to the bathroom to vomit! Yes, SUCCESS! I was, however quite nauseous during the resting periods. Ben gave us an awesome nutrition tip that focused on how to burn more calories without doing anything extra! It's called the Thermic Effect and you can also read that on Ben's Blog. Read it, it has some great, smart and useful information.

After my ass-whoopin' at the gym, I headed to a doctor's appointment for a follow up from last week. I don't own a scale but the doctor's office of course forces us to step onto the dreaded thing. Ben tells us not to weigh ourselves, It's not all about the scale and it will discourage us, but I am so excited about this I have to share... from Friday last week to Friday this week, I lost 3 pounds. Now, I know that is most likely water weight, but I don't care! It's weight! It is just proof to me that I am doing something right. Not only that, but I didn't start the nutrition and workouts until Wednesday. That is both motivational and exciting!

Today we had our first Metabolism Makeover meeting. I had to be in Derby for 8 on a Saturday morning, but there was no workout, so no problem! We discussed ways that different things can affect your metabolism, both positively and negatively. We also discussed the different weight loss programs and fads out there and why they don't work. It is so amazing seeing it all in this new light. A big focus today was our goal tracker. The goal tracker is simply a sheet of paper that each MOOser needed to fill out stating our goals, reasons, how we will achieve them, obstacles, solutions to obstacles, who will help us out along the way, when we will start, when we want to meet our goals (short and long term), and also how we will reward ourselves for making progress toward our goals. This is where it became emotional.

I won't disclose what the other MOOser's goals are because those are personal, and I don't feel it is my place to expose them. However, I will certainly share mine, because the more I am saying it, the better it sounds, the better it feels, the more sense it makes. Plus, I know that YOU are the people that gave me this fantastic opportunity, so why not? I kind of feel like I am at that place (all of you mothers out there will know exactly what I mean) where you are a first time mom, and you're worried about everyone seeing your stuff when you give birth. But then suddenly you're there. And you just want to do it, and it hurts and sucks, but now you don't care who sees your stuff because it's going to get you where you need to be. This is me showing my stuff to get me to where I need to be. Only this time- I have all of my clothes on!

Initially I had written that my goal was to become a healthy and attractive weight/size (because we know we can't count solely on the scale). But ultimately my goal is to know that if I want to take my precious daughter, Liberty to Santa's Village, I can hop on the ride with her and not worry if I will fit. I don't want to have to stand on the side lines while Alex and Libby live their lives without me. I want to give Alex back the wife he once had, that was bubbly, energetic and full of life. A short term way of knowing that I am progressing toward my goal will be when I take Liberty to her weekly Kindermusik class and I am able to get up and down off of the floor and dance around comfortably and easily. That is my 6 week goal. I will BE THERE! My long term goal for 6 months is to lose 80 pounds. It might sound like a big dream, but why not? Every Goddess knows how important it is to go for our dreams! Dreams cannot be caught if you don't chase them! Something else that is very important to me is teaching my daughter the healthy way to live, so when she is 29 years old, she is not going through what I am!

My celebration and reward for making my goals will of course be hopping onto that ride this summer at Santa's Village, and never hesitating.... It might sound simple to people who have never been in my shoes, but to me it's the world. SHE is my world & HE he is my world. And it's time I give them what they deserve. ME! In return, I will have THEM!