So bad at blogging!

Again I find myself apologizing for not blogging in a really long time. I'm sorry. Now let's move on, shall we?

The past few weeks I have been quite busy, going to BBC, working and of course taking care of my little family. All in all life's been pretty good to me. I had a bit of a setback after cheat meals were introduced. I couldn't imagine such a thing would throw me so off course, but it did. I managed to work my way through it with the help of all of my good support people at home and my wonderful MOOser family. So a big thanks to everyone for that. Now that I am through it, I am completely willing and happy to accept a cheat meal once a week. Today being Mother's Day, I went out and had a nice breakfast with Alex and Liberty.

Here's the thing about cheat meals:

The foods that you used to love still taste good, but you don't really love them anymore. Or at least that is how it has been for me. You know, I have been thinking about french toast all week, and they were good, but it didn't throw me into any kind of foodgasm. And if it had, it doesn't last. I think my favorite part about the cheat meal is the mental processing of the meal, or should I say the lack of it. You just eat it. No measuring with utensils or scales, no worrying about percentages, you just eat it. It's easy. The ease of it all was how I got this overweight to begin with.

One new thing in my life is the scale... I am addicted. I might need an intervention. I have been weighing myself- A LOT! But, I have confessed my sins and we are moving on from that too. We are not supposed to weigh ourselves because the scale doesn't tell the whole story, the scale can be discouraging and all in all isn't a great tool to tell you how you're doing. The scale has become very big in my life over the past couple of weeks because it has been moving in a great direction. And at a steady pace. I have lost 38 pounds. THIRTY EIGHT pounds. I look at it, and I cannot believe it. Are you serious? I have managed to lose 38 pounds??? I think for once in my life I finally truly believe in myself. I can do this. I can lose this weight and I can change my life, my future, my husband's future, my daughter's future and the future of my child(ren) to come. That is simply astonishing. When I started this I really felt like it was so untouchable. And now I have a firm grasp and I won't let go. I set a goal for myself to lose 80 pounds by mid August. That gave me 25ish weeks from the starting point. I am 11 weeks down and almost half way there! That speaks volumes to me. If I stick with it, I WILL reach my goal and surpass it! The scale is motivating to me. If I see it move, I know what I have to do to keep it moving. If it's not moving, I know what I need to do to make it move. Ben has given us all of the tools to succeed. If they are used, there is no room for failure.

Another addiction that I have is the way that I feel. God, I really feel great. That in itself is very motivating because I also know in order to continue to feel like this I have to keep going. Life before BBC was very lethargic, sedentary and boring. That is not this Christine. I want to do things that I never wanted to do before. Or that I wanted to do and didn't because I was too tired, didn't think I had the stamina to do or was too embarrassed to do. The MOOser family is even going to be going rock wall climbing. How much fun is that? I am very excited for it. I even borrowed a child backpack carrier thingy from one of my MOOser sisters so I can take Liberty hiking. Now, I just need to find someone to go with me. I'm too afraid of things in the woods to go on my own like bear, deer.... turkeys. LOL! When I get scared, I get a little cardio sprinting in. Bonus!

I guess that will conclude my update for now. I think I am burning chicken! I probably ought to go check on that! Moral of the story: Christine's life is good, and it's getting better everyday!